Author: jackiejax23

I am a passionate, emotional, constantly in awe, grateful, 80's ballad singing (screeching), yogaing, face to the sun, ever evolving, lesson listing, artist that finds bliss in everyday living with my hubby and making art. I cry when I look at brightly colored paint and my heart is wide open. Most of the time.

Introducing.. the art journal

Hello again!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Thursday. The sun is finally shining out here. Oh my gosh there has been so much rain, it lovingly looks like Ireland outside. So plush! So deep! So clear! But to be honest, I’m really craving the good ol’ fashioned hot weather I’m used to here in North County San Diego.

I’m feeling a little bit under the weather today. I knew I wanted to get this blog post up early this am, but not feeling amazing, and also having the kids over last night proved to be a little more maneuvering than I had hoped. I don’t know how you full time parents do it. I may have the best schedule set up in the world, but if the kids are here, it’s so much harder to stick to it. 🙂

Anyway.

I did think ‘Oh maybe I can just miss today blogging,’ or do it later in the afternoon. But I know that it’s not going to become a habit if I don’t make it a priority. So. There you go. Real life working shit out. Ha!

I’m in an interesting place with art today.

First of all, I’m so so so so so utterly grateful that I get to CREATE everyday, that my husband values me doing what I want and need, and he’s seriously my biggest cheerleader.

Second of all, I have ideas bursting out of me every couple of hours. I get this ‘Aha!!!’ moment and I see something new in my head. It’s very exciting, and invigorating.

The part that’s interesting is I haven’t made much finished work lately. I feel like I’m learning all over again how to do that. I’ve carried my art journals around for years with me even during the time that I was trying NOT to be an artist. I need them, I instantly feel more myself doodling and drawing and painting. This is where I also jot down shopping lists, write my innermost feelings, or slap paint through the pages as a release when I’m too emotional to breathe. I love creating, and the best part is:

I don’t even think about how it’ll look when it’s finished. Nothing is ever finished! It’s always been this ever evolving purge of juicy passionate creation.

Okay.

So now, I’m here in my life to make actual work, and I’m figuring that out. ahhahah It’s kind of an interesting experience. I am pivoting to use my art journal along with everyday purging to try out all these ideas!What I’ve realized, is that so far in many ways, I’m much more tenuous with my precious blank piece of paper or canvas then I am with my messy art journal. I mean it makes sense. It’s not what I am used to. But I really love the organic explosion of what I’ve done hidden away in my books. So I’m learning how to bring that sense of play into actual pieces. I’m excited about this! I can do this, it make take an adjustment, but part of it is probably just trusting that I can create. That I am an artist and I can create on art journal paper, or canvas, or thick delicious watercolor paper. Whatever mediums I choose to use, I can use.

Art journals will always be my special release. Anyone ever used one? They have really helped me embrace play, and not be so afraid of mistakes. Here is a picture of one of my art journal pages. I have over 10 full journals. Each one I’ve used for about a year. They spell out a good chunk of my life.

Where in your life do you get to be your messy passionate self? I’d love to hear your stories!

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This is really happening

Oh wow, here we go.

Hello. My name is Jackie and I am a recovering closet artist.

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For years I had lived afraid of anyone seeing my doodles and art pieces, but needing desperately to make them. Then I moved a bit on from that but still clung to the idea that all artists must live in poverty. That silly belief is exactly what has kept me from living my full truth.

Finally, this year, I’ve decided I am moving into a different place. I want to feel joy as often as possible, and if creating art is where I am truly me, then that is where I should be, right? Isn’t that true for all of us?

I’ve attempted a couple of blogs in the past, I’m not gunna lie. But I end up getting bored of them, or feel like I SHOULD be writing about things that just aren’t coming natural to me.

This is going to be different.

I’m sick of being something I’m not or FOCUSING on things that don’t feel yummy, and passionate and full to me, like art.

Ha! So there you go.

I’ll show what I’m working on, describe where I’m headed (even just for that day), and share bits of my life. Because why not? I’m ready to be inspired by life and live fully in art every single day.

 

Here goessssssssssssssss

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